No baby again

Today’s news is an answer to last week’s questions. Mrs is not pregnant.

It is hard to maintain faith at these times, and to remind ourselves that we believe that a new baby is God’s calling on us. Abraham and Sarah had to wait until she was 80 to see the promise fulfilled. For now, we shut the curtains and Mrs hides in bed, emerging only for comfort feeding. I warned the kids to keep a low profile for the week!

We are fairly confidant that eggs are being fertilised, but they don’t seem to implant. In younger days we were always very fertile. So now she worries that the strong doses of methotrexate (arthritis medication) that she used to take may have done damage to the eggs so that now they don’t grow properly. This is a small problem for God, but of course we want the answer now (the clock is ticking quickly past the age when it is safe to have babies) and god’s idea of soon is different form ours.

It is also very frustrating becasue we get all of the pregnancy symptoms each month, but it comes to nothing.

Today was a sudden drop in mood – on Sunday a visitor to the church mistook her for a student, which did her ego a lot of good and was a much happier moment.