The bad is that for yet another month, my wife is being put through the roller coaster of emotion. She feels pregnant, has all the symptomns of morning sickness etc, but no blood spots on the day of expected implantation. She tries to get used to the idea of not being pregnant but the feelings continue to increase until the day of her period, when of course she does get a small flow. But then the flow stops and the preganancy feelings increase, until she plucks up the corage to tell me that maybe it was one of these cases where you do get a small period early in the pregnancy. But as soon as she tells me, the full flow starts.
If she knew from the start that she was not pregannt, it would be OK, but she is always teased by these sensations.
We think that what is happening is that fertilisation is taking place, but that the embryos are not implanting -and that makes her worry that she is just not up to it any more. I reminded her about Abraham's wife Sarah, who was promised a child but had to wait till her eighties. THis was intended as encouragement, but missed the mark!
We do believe it will happen, but in God's time, not ours.
On the good side - reading again the small print of the tax credit guidance notes, we are entitled to include the losses from fostering in the assessment of income regardless of what they told me on the phone, and have sent off the forms accordingly. We shall wait and see what happens.
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